Oh dear..

I've neglected this blog. Left it for ten days. Someone slap me. D:

It probably because I was slacking. To other people, I say that I was busy trying to do my bird homework.. But instead I was really slacking.

Now I'm working my butt on it. And a monkey homework too.

No one told me that we had to draw four fucking monkeys! No one! Then I heard the teacher texted a person to spread the word about the homework, leaving me in despair. I know my 'friends' know my number. I know it very well. If they didn't, then they could have told me in Yahoo or MSN or even tell it to my face.

But no. Not a word. And on the day (yesterday) of handing in homeworks, the teacher asked me about my monkeys. No monkeys. :(

This sucks. My dad was right. There are no such things as friends in college. One goes seperate ways. There's no point in making friends anymore when you are all competing against each other or work in different stations.

No such thing. Ever. I even lost a good old friend, whom I had since highschool. Ever since college started, we became distant. It was awkward when we talked. He befriended other people.

I feel really left alone.. But who cares? No one. Me neither. I'll just work, work and work. I'll show their asses. I'll show them all..

This is dumb..

Very dumb.

Why am I not doing homework? Am I afraid to do it? Dammit.. It's to be passed this Friday.. Then again, I heard there's a holiday on that day.. Hope it hits.

Start of the week

Oh god, it's Monday already and I NEED to get to work on that bird drawing! They're due this week on Friday and I didn't touch it. I must be really intimidated... I'll get to work on them tomorrow - when I'm home earlier than today.. I hope..

Those moments

There are those moments when I sometimes feel girly again. Sure, I'm a girl, but I'm not into dressing up and making myself look pretty. I'll be very truthful here: I'm an overweight teenager with the largest legal breast size an asian would have. The breast thing is as bad as my weight - I mean what the hell are they going to look like when I get pregnant?! Sunken little things they'll be for sure.

Back to being girly. I wouldn't call it girly, but there are times when I want to be in the kitchen. Whipping up sweet pastries like cookies and cupcakes and decorating them until they were fit for a little princess. I can imagine it already.. A vanilla cupcake base with a big fluffy swirl of vanilla buttercream (or whipcream), and a sprinkle of rainbow hundreds and thousands. Or a red velvet cupcake with smooth creamcheese icing and sprinkled with tiny red dots.

I love red velvet cake.

This feeling makes me want to take up a pastry baking course. Sadly, I'm stuck to being an animator - and there's no coming back. If I give up now, my one year of being a student would go to waste. Makes me want to cry...

Speaking of animation, I need to get back to my homework. I have to draw four different kinds of birds - all in color pencils! Oh the horror.. All due this friday, and my grades ride on it!

That pastry baking course doesn't sound like a bad idea after all.

Dark Dessert Memories

This is origianlly supposed to be a contest entry for this. However, I don't have a camera of my own and I am not allowed anywhere near our oven. If only this was my house, I'd be baking up a storm!

Speaking of my house back in Hong Kong.. I used to bake almost everyday before I had to come here to the Philippines. The first thing I made were cookies, then creampuffs. I loved my creampuffs. Loved them to bits! I would invite my friends to bake with me. Good fun. The best compliment came from my dad, "These are better than Beard Papa's*!"

*Beard Papa is a company that sells cream puffs. I don't really believed that mine were better, because I always loved Beard Papa's cream puffs, but still.. It made me blush.

Before cream puffs, I made cookies. My first cookie inspiration came from the Cupcake Project. The latest post was about cookie dough without eggs, which is perfect for eating raw. I made this recipe, thinking that "Well, this is nice, maybe I can make eggless cookies! Aren't those healthy?"

Wrong.

The dough looked my type. Caramel brown, studded with chocolate chips.. I was thinking this would be successful! Until I popped them into the oven. When they came out, they were pale pale white. The cookie itself had a very weird sweet taste to it. The chocolate chips overpowered the cookie, giving a bitter aftertaste.

And the texture.. Oh the texture. It was horrifying. It tasted like.. Like.. Like Hopia!

Not saying Hopia is bad - I like hopia, crumbly bites, sweet fillings.. But I'm baking cookies! They're supposed to be crunchy in the edges, chewy in the center, sweet and flavourful!

My mom helped me later, the cookies tasted much sweeter, but I couldn't get past that hopia texture.. Ugh.. *shivers*

Oh well.. That's past now. I've made better cookies after. ;w;

- Niki

Oh hi.

I just came back from my trip to Tagaytay with the family, an overnight stay. There was absolutely NO internet in the resort. Seriously, I half died, but swimming around a lot and cable TV made the wound feel better. Therefore, today, I'll be making two blog posts.

Tagaytay was awesome! For one night, I was able to find solace in the cold night air, which you don't get here in Cavite. Our room was blasted with cold cold wind from the aircon, making it feel like I was in Hong Kong once again. The hotel didn't give us blankets, which was bad service, but my coat did the job.

The half the day, I went swimming. I think I got a tan after that, but I was told I looked fine. Tans go away after a while, right? I hope they do - I rather have my natural milky complexion.

After that we played Pinoy Henyo, a game where you have to guess a word, asking yes or no questions to your friends and they can only say 'yes', 'no or 'maybe'. I didn't get to win my word, since I was just asking all the wrong questions (the word was 'cake'). My favourite game we played of all was Charades (sp?). It was fun acting!

We were supposed to watch a movie after and have a bible study, but I got super exhausted. It was only 8 pm too! I just went to bed, thinking a nice rest for my muscles will do the trick.. I just fell asleep.

And I slept like a log! I woke up at 9 am. Count those hours. I slept for a whopping thirteen hours. Was I really that tired? What did I do?!

I went swimming after breakfast the next day and I stupidly swallowed some pool water. It was disgusting! The water was littered with insects and plastic things that are not supposed to be there! I could feel my stomach getting furious at me..

Anyway, I just recently saw this little competition about posting up your dark dark dessert memories.. I'll write about that later!

- Niki

(Oh god, I haven't even done my homework for four bird drawings! It's due this Friday!)

Rewarded

There's always a rainbow after a dark rainy day, I say. After yesterday's check up with the doctor and given the right medicine - I feel better already! I'm making fast progress as today my tummy didn't hurt at least once! ^^ I feel happy~

Another good thing is that my cell phone got better as well. See, two weeks ago (or was it just one?), I cried my eyes out that most of my tears seeped into it's poor circuit and made it black out. I got it back from the technician and now he's good as new!

Also, today, I learned about a new foodie website: Serious Eats. I'm still trying to get familiar with it since it seems to be a worldwide thing.. I'm not sure - but still! I'm starting to fall in love with it. It's a really good looking website, and has all the articles I like! I have three tabs of it in Firefox, waiting to be read.

Since I can't wait to read them, I'll end my post here now. Wait for my next post tomorrow!

- Niki